Reflection (2010)

So for those of you all who actually know me, I'll be leaving for Dubai in a few hours. Therefore, goodbye Malaysia for the rest of the year. Be back in January. So I'm now taking the effort to blog one last time before the year ends.

2010 was by far a WHOLE NEW YEAR for me. Almost every single thing had changed. New school, new people and so many more new experiences!

I shall start of with school as that's how the year began for me (and almost everyone else who's still a student). On the first day of an entirely new environment, I was really worried. Expecting that it would take really long for me to adapt. As the "new guy" I knew would be kind of left out and stuff. But as usual, God was with me and proved me wrong! To all my friends who I've come to know and love, THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH for making this a year to remember. Trent, Danesh, Jude, Ying Hong, Ian, Faya, Adrienne, Farah, Louise, Shannon and everyone else, you guys really are a blessing in my life. =)

Growing closer to people I already know never fails to amaze me. Just when I think I know everyone as best as possible, I come to know you all even closer. Especially a certain few. Mike, Edwin, Zhi-Wei, Eugene, Sean, Denise, Mei-Yan, SarahS, God bless all of you for being a part of my life for so long, growing up together, being so active in church, and of course, continuing our walk with God. =)

I love you all!

So despite all the crap that's happened this year, I shall not forget the happy ones as well =)

I'd love to post an individual message for each and everyone of you, but time forbids me cause the taxi JUST arrived =P I'll see if I can find time to do so while I'm away.

So yes, a MERRY CHRISTMAS and BLESSED NEW YEAR to all of you! Take care.

And to you, I'm gonna missssss youuuuu loads =)

"AFTERMATH" (2011)

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New blog template, along with a NEW header is a work in progress =)

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A beautiful exchange indeed

To all you people who are just as crazy about Hillsong as me, you probably already know they released their 2010 Live album in July. Taking a look at the cover, I didn't think it would be as great of an album as it's previous ones. That's where I was so WRONG! I guess the saying of not judging a book by its cover applies to music albums as well (Don't judge an album by its cover =P)

This album is by far Hillsong's best work of worship. It may not have as pumped up songs as its previous album, but the songs bring a whole lot more meaning.

You know how most of us only think that we're truly worshiping with our whole hearts only when we go all emotional and slow paced. This album begs to differ. Worship doesn't mean we can't be happy and stay focused on him at the same time i.e. always having to overly cry our hearts out every single time.

Even the album cover itself has a story! After reading about it, I understood why they went ahead with it (God is truly AMAZING). READ HERE

To really understand what I'm trying to say here, go pick up a copy of the album yourself. Guarantee to have no regrets =)

OUR GOD IS LOVE!

"I am weak but He is strong"

Something I reflect on often is how I've changed since I was younger, since before I experienced God. Being the youngest in my family, all of my siblings have already left home. My sisters were already adults when I was born. My brothers left while I was in primary school. Of course I've enjoyed every moment spent with them before they left even if I didn't back then. It's because of them, I am who I am today. Them leaving while I was still young, I've had to learn many things by myself and through other people. While all of my friends had siblings to help them with their homework, I never had anyone to refer to.

Throughout the years, it's safe to say that I've grown maturely in both worldly and spiritually ways. However, due to this, I tend to rely too much on my own strength to do nearly impossible things. I guess the sense of independence comes as second nature to me. It's only recently that I realised that I can't keep this up forever. I have to turn to Him. The title of this post is taken from one of the most famous christian songs EVERRRR....... JESUS LOVES ME =D

But yes it is true. No human can do everything by him/herself. We NEED and MUST rely on His strength!

1 Chronicles 16:11

Look to the LORD and his strength; seek his face always.

Nehemiah 8:10

Do not grieve, for the joy of the LORD is your strength.

Psalm 28:8

The LORD is the strength of his people, a fortress of salvation for his anointed one.

Psalm 46:1

God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.

Psalm 105:4

Seek the Lord and his strength; seek his presence continually.

When in times of need, cry out to Him. Pray, and your prayers will be answered. =)

Revival & Prayer

Spending my weekend at a prayer conference wouldn't be something I'd normally do. But with consideration of current events and the change wanted to be implemented in church, I thought it would be good to go for it =)

All started of last week with Mei-Yan passing me the brochure for DUMC's Prayer Conference. The speaker was Pastor Dr. Phillip Lyn & his wife, Nancy. I, of all people should know the limit of my attention span. Verdict, .... not so good. I won't lie. There were times where I nearly fell dozed off during the conference (especially Friday night). The main message was revival and prayer. Revivals have taken place in places I never knew of and truly, after hearing the stories, God is simply amazing.

The pastor told us that how can we expect our nation to be revived if we ourselves have not been renewed. I'm sure many of us have had that one big encounter with God that has changed us since then. But it doesn't have to stop there you know! Though I pay attention to what's being spoken, pray with everyone else powerfully, there's always the question of whether I'd just be in the mood of it there and then, or be able to bring it back with me wherever i go. After the first day, I found it REALLY GOOD. But honestly, I felt like it wouldn't last long....

Then came Saturday. Wasn't planning to go for it due to my usual Saturday commitments. But I did really want to go for it. I was told that no matter how much we serve Him, we can only grow and learn if we make time to also RECEIVE from Him. Thus, my mind started to reflect =P I really did want to go for it though. THEN, I met bumped into Denise in church. Found out she was going for it later and since MYF was cancelled, I decided to follow her. Missed out on band class during BB, but I have no regrets in the decision I made. It was worth it. He makes things happen!

I even went for the third and last part of it, which was today. Right after first service, I tagged along with Zhi-Wei. When I left, let's just say I felt crappy. Didn't think I could pay attention today. During one of the times we prayed, my stomach felt like it had been slightly twisted (That's the best I can describe it). So, I decided to concentrate even more on my prayer. After crying out from the inside to Him, it was gone. Emotions faded. I basically felt plain. So I continued. I think I got "hit" by Him without even knowing it =)

After service, I went over to "The Burning Bush" (DUMC's own bookshop) to buy a book that was recommended throughout the conference; The Bario Revival. When I got to the counter, I managed to get the LAST copy of it. I for one don't read much on a normal basis. So it wouldn't really have mattered if I didn't manage to get it. Bu the fact that the last one they had was in my hands must have meant that God really wanted me to read it, and I shall do so.

At home, I didn't feel like how I'd normally feel every Sunday after church,which was something like "Monday blue's"? I felt "just", not worrying about tomorrow or the days to come. In conclusion, I did bring back, keep and gain a few things. I was REALLY REVIVED. My faith in Him has grown. Though I've been resisting and not giving in, I learnt how to control myself instead of letting the devil control me.

MY GOD IS REALLY AND AWESOME GOD!

THE GOD OF WONDERS AND HOPE!

This nation better watch out! For He's coming! ;)

Clcik here for more.

Your love is like fire. It burns for all to see.

A computer manual!

Believe it or not, reading a computer manual can save the day.

Guess it's not that useless after all.

Today, A Mushroom

I wonder what's behind the mushroom ;P

♥

P.S. Thank youuuuuuu! =)

Worship Leading VS. Performing

I found this video quite helpful. Hope you do too! =)

I have a tower and you don't

HAH!

It's in KL by the way.

With Hearts As One!

It's the 28th! Yes, the title of this post is taken from the ever so amazing Hillsong United album. What does it have to do with this post? READ ONNNN.

We hear many stories relating to poverty in poorer countries, how we should reach out to them and bring God's love to them. First things first, get your heart and mind right! How are we (yes, WE, not just you or me alone) supposed to do so when we ourselves ignore the big man up there? You tell me.

For many weeks, maybe months, worship through the youth ministries I serve in church doesn't really end up being worship at all. Not pointing fingers or anything. At the same time, I'm thankful for those who have led the rest into worship whole heartedly. Worship is more than just singing songs and going through a chord sheet. Yes, this must be reminded to ourselves ALL THE TIME. Only when everyone's heart is set right, will we be able to make change.

2 weeks ago, I was given the opportunity to lead a worship session this week. Chose some fairly uncommon songs because the meaning of the songs meant a lot to me. I had an urge. An urge to bring and show and remind everyone else why it is we worship the lord! Throughout this process, He really tested me to see how badly I wanted to do this. First off, I had a really small worship team... like.... REALLY small. Secondly, despite the fact there were only 3 of us, we couldn't have an advance practice. So, the plan was to meet at church around 7.30am to practice (Before the days activities took place). Retardedly, I overslept.... =.= Then again, I somehow managed to wake up eventually out of nowhere.

I truly must say, I began to worry. Thus, some quiet time needed to be spent. Felt much better after that. I was reminded of the devotions I had gone through throughout the week, the story relating to David & Goliath (on how David had such strong faith for a little guy, and that caused him to be victorious and protected by God). Shared this and a few other things with the team.

Ever wonder why we worship God with songs?

Cause the Bible said so! =) ~Psalm 100:2

Because you did not serve the Lord your God with joyfulness and gladness of heart, because of the abundance of all things, therefore you shall serve your enemies whom the Lord will send against you, in hunger and thirst, in nakedness, and lacking everything. And he will put a yoke of iron on your neck until he has destroyed you.

- Deuteronomy 28:47-48 -

As for the above passage, it's a bit scary, but yes, this is why we should worship the Lord with joy and happiness of our heart and not just do it for the sake of doing it!

Carrying on, attended the "Youth Adore 2010" concert. Mmmmm... shan't say much about it. If you really wanna know then ask me personally =) Things for sure are, Drummer For Christ were AWESOME! One of the members really enjoys drumming so much that he smiles while playing the entire beat.

Custom made Drummer For Christ drum sticks!

(Not mine though)

Worship was passionate. The musicians did know their instruments well, but that's beside the point. The way I felt while worshiping,.... haven't felt like that in a long time. By faith, they sang "Look To You", "From The Inside Out" and "Came To My Rescue" (3 of which I've been listening to quite often on my iPod). The songs were obviously to my preference, but the best thing was that I started to praise Him with my all. Singing my lungs out, not caring if I would lose my voice. L-O-V-E =)

So yeah. I guess I had an adventure this Saturday.

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED EDWIN. ;P

Sometimes I wish I could just blog from my mind because by the time I actually sit down and open blogger, I forget everything I wanted to say =.= Mmmmmm... I'm sure I wanted to write about something else but guess it slipped my mind....... Oh well.

The above prayer relates to a song I sang earlier today;

"To Know Your Name" Go listen to it.

P.S. Edwin is a bad influence & going to KL is terrible. Right Edwin? lol

It's called the struggle of life

Consume me from the inside out, Lord...

Yet another month is about to pass. I think i actually have the fear of growing old. The thought of where am I heading always flows through my mind. I've got a few things set but THE BIG PICTURE is yet to be revealed even to myself. This world is too full of itself sometimes I think. Finding it hard to stay on my walk with Him. (Me and my troubled mind.... Hah.)

Few things I've been wanting to post up here; exams are over. That's a relief. Stupid homework checking is here (Oh nooooo!). It's when everyone rushes to complete the ridiculous amount of work given by the teachers just to satisfy the people on top of them =.=

Am currently on a 40 days prayer and fast! No lunch and facebook for me :O I seriously hope I don't get any thinner. Am grateful to have company while I fast in school, as well as the many people who've decided to fast from facebook as well =)

Haven't been feeling well this past whole week. From headaches, flus, and sore throats, to a hamster biting my finger and an anti-tetanus shot (Yes. I know it's ridiculous... LAUGH with me)

Big cousin turned 19! Celebrated at his place with a BBQ. Still think his place is by far, the best place to have a party. After devouring all the food I wanted, headed off to the squarish park with a basketball which couldn't bounce properly. Ended up playing "catching" at the playground. (Reliving the glory days! Except this, time I don't get tired as fast =P) Ended up on the swings with herrr. From there, it lead to playing basketball in the darkness (Train your eyes?). Everyone's slippers kept braking off from the sole. Got fed up after a while seeing as there were so many people there. Sat down and had a nice looong chat =)

=)

The party ended pretty late. Stayed over. Headache kicked in again. Watched a ridiculously long yet not so great movie. Fell asleep. Donkey was playing DOTA all night. Left for church the next day.

TMC PJ celebrated its 51st anniversary yesterday. I expected more from the turnout though. Mei-Yan's musical offering was moving =) BB boys are an official brass band now! Haha! Great job for only a few days of practice. Food served was good. Ate to my hearts content. For dessert, waited in the longest line everrrr to get not one but TWO ice kacangs ;)

Sunday school and prayer today was yet again, gooood. I keep feeling like I'm facing depression or something, or at least I act like it =/

Which brings me to where I am now, sitting in front of my desktop typing this, wondering if there's something more important for me to do.

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Sometimes I feel like I'm unhappy or disappointed. It takes a toll on me. It was just recently that I realised I shouldn't care that much. IT HAPPENS. In my mind, I keep telling some people that there are bigger things to worry about. Therefore, I shall be no hypocrite for the Lord is my strength! =)

Your will above all else, My purpose remains

The art of losing myself, in bringing You praise

In my heart and my soul, Lord I give You control

Consume me from the inside out, Lord

Hooked on to "From The Inside Out" because I finally get the whole song. It's lyrics define the way we should live and want our lives to be. Thank you Faya for reminding me of that song =)

Read many interesting verses and passages in the Bible through my devotions. Some of which really relate to me personally. I LOVE YOU GOD! You never fail me when I need You most!

I'M FREE!

Proverbs 3:5-6

This verse has been appearing to me in many different ways lately

I should always trust in Him no matter what

I should not rely on my own strength

I must rely on His

He has a plan for me

I need to pay attention to Him

And find out what it is

This verse reminds me just how awesome He can be, how he reigns over all the earth, over each and every single one of us. It reminds me of how I much I love Him, and how much He loves me. =)

1 year, 1 week, 1 day

I'm officially 1 year, 1 week, & 1 day

older from my birthday last year.

Many apologies for the lack of updates. School work has not been kind to me these past few weeks. It's currently 1am, and I'm awake cause I've been sleeping since I've got back from school. I shall now take the time to update you stalkers on my life ;D

WARNING: PICTUREFUL UPDATE AHEAD

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SEDAYAN CONCERT

My school had a concert on the 8th of July to promote itself to other schools (No joke). Was chosen to be one of the emcees alongside Faya & Farah (making me the only guy.... oh joy).

Also performed with my so called band which broke up right after we finished performing.

Through that experience, I've found out that the BASS attracts the most attention =)

Sorry for the over-shadowing Danesh =P

Oh, and that was the first time I saw Trent again in many weeks! =D

Had fun taking shots with my bass.

My attempt at teaching Adrienne to play bass. Sorry Adrienne,

she picks up what I teach WAY faster than you ;P

Managed to attract more unwanted stalkers that day... "I'm not available people!"

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MYF PLAY 4 FUN

Play 4 Fun this year was more fun. Better turnout.

Games this year were futsal and captain ball. Played em both.

Somebody's not happy with me catching the ball =P

Got injured thanks to SOME DONKEY.

My new Nike "Tiempo Natural III"s AWESOMENESS.

Thanks Edwin, Sean & Joel

My surprise Birthday Cupcakes

(which are PINK might I point out)

Our Jerseys! 16 + 17 = 28 Lame. I know x)

Play 4 fun was...... fun? Had a good time (apart from getting injured). All in all, day well spent. Thank you for the "Happy Birthdays" that day people. Appreciate it =)

Headed out for dinner with Paul, Edwin & Wing Tjun later that night as well. Ate till I was stuffed with indomee and garlic cheese naan. Cooled down wit a limau ice. Great............. I just made myself hungry and thirsty.....

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Other than these 2 highlights, I also went for DUMC's 180 The Musical. Met Adrienne, Danesh & Ian there to give our support to Shannon.

Some genius celebrated his birthday on the 16th as well. Forgot what his name was. All I remember was his friends in school threw him and other July babies a surprise party which led to a whole lot of drama for the rest of the day... He says thank you once again to all of you.

Sunday was a nice day. Hehe. You all should know why. If you don't, all I'm gonna say is that I watched Eclipse.

@ It's okay. I didn't pay attention to the ending either =)

& I still thought it was great ;)

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Thank you so much for a lovely weekend youuuu =)

Yes I know, I stole it off your blog =P

I like the picture too.

And I can finally say that WE talk too much ;) Hahaha.

(08/07/2010)

I am off to play futsal in a few hours and say goodbye to someone.

Turned 16 on the 16th. Wore 16

on the 17th next to the 17

=)

CHANGE ChAnGe change

It's one of those moments where I feel like blogging but when I finally get to it I don't. =.=

I should take a break.

Life is sometimes unclear, uncertain,

unpredictable, & foggy =)

I'm back from Camerooooon Highlands. Most of you already know that I forgot to bring my jacket up there. Yeah well, apparently it's not as cold as Australia or New Zealand on a normal day. All the overseas travelling has paid off!

Went up to Cheefoo Methodist Centre. Last time we went there about 3 years ago. They've renovated the rooms and all but the outside is still the same.

Something I learnt up there was things NEVER stay the same. Change is always among us whether we like it or not. On the journey up there, I told Zhi-Wei that we were getting old and that the younger ones running around the back of the bus used to be us. He agreed.

Throughout the years, I've lost and made new friends. Sad to say that, it really does suck when so many close friends end up far far away from you. But of course, I'm blessed to have made both NEW friends as well as become close to those I'd never thought I would spend so much time with.

I assume this is all part of God's plan for me..... something bigger which he is preparing me for right now.

Times really do change as well. From generation to generation, we look at the younger ones and go, "We never used to that when we were their age," or "Kids these days......."

MANY of us wish we could go back to a certain time to cherish and appreciate the moments more. Unfortunately, time doesn't work that way (duh!). I realise I don't really know where this post is leading... dot dot dot

Moving away from all the emo-ness....... I found out there's an emo feeling which can be described as Happy-Emo. Basically, the emotional thoughts make you smile instead of cry la (Don't ask how). Haha.

Haven't been catching up on as much sleep as I intended to (Help).

Will give you a proper update when I FELL like it =P. Goodbye!

Thankfully I have someone as positive and cheerful as you to keep me balanced =)

NOTE TO SELF: GET THAT THING DONE ALREADY!!!

We're going to the mountains! =D

Off to Cameron Highlands today. Time to find inner peace, get my mind straight, and seek God. I just want to enjoy everything up there, the scenery, the weather, and feel God's presence once again. Take me now for You deserve.

SURPRISE!

PEACE

My day has been handmade (28/6)

"Give me eyes to see the more of who You are"

"For You my God, are greater still"

It's amazing how God works. Yes we've all heard that sentence many times before, but how many times have we ACTUALLY experienced it first hand?.....

The past week, I was literally thinking too much. Almost went through another break down (only myself to blame). My mind started wondering about what was I gonna study after SPM and what career path would I choose. I had some ideas but didn't really feel like it was in my interest. Then again I am a lazy arse who'd rather not work xP

So I went to look up some career choices on the Internet. Found out a lot of information on requirements and study paths. Felt less burdened. Then my mind went on to "What subjects to take for SPM?" Apparently I'm not a very "sciency" student but I am in the science stream. I guess that's just the way the Malaysian curriculum works. Can't do much about it.

On Saturday, He spoke to me along with a whole bunch of others during MYF. We were given a talk on how to choose our career path. Paid a lot of attention to it. Barely felt like sleeping. The one thing which I did not take into consideration, was to pray about it. Ask God to reveal his plan for me. That never crossed my mind probably because everyone else in my family knew what they wanted to do. I'm sure that now, I WILL put God first in the path that I choose, hoping that it is all in His plan for me =)

BB/GB enrollment was good. DIDN'T GET ANY SLEEP AT ALL. Spent time making a lame and embarrassing video that was watched by the whole congregation. But hey, at least everybody had some laughs. Congratulations to those of you who were promoted. Looking forward to another year of serving with both the old and new members.

Now, on to current events. Today marks one of those days I should remember automatically. Cause it only comes by once in a lifetime. Then again, I forgot, but thankfully I remembered well before time. Haha. (Effects of stress and AGING). It has officially been a month. A good one I must say. Thank you for everything (and of course, the card). You've made life a whole lot brighter for me. Still looking forward to the times to come =)

My friends told me I used to smile a lot in school.

Today, they noticed that I smile even more =)

Haha =P

The First & The Last

You'd better not hug me...

Why not?....

Cause if you do, I may never let go of you =)

BLA BLA BLA SOMETHING SOMETHING. Kay, I'm done with my introduction. The worst part of the holidays are officially hereeeeee. THE ENDING! *JENG JENG JENG* *gasp* (I think this just shows I shouldn't be blogging late at night. Too much random crap will be written. Hmmm....) Anyway, I'm gonna go in chronological order. Here goes.

PROLOGUE

If you don't know what's been going on with me...... well...... there was VCS where all the little kids were running and screaming [Step 1 to parenthood, control big crowds of little kids].

Also taught somebody to play the bass [and enjoyed every second of it might I add =))))]. You did an awesome job by the way. I'm so proud of youuuuu ;)

@ I enjoyed all those random moments we had together.

TUESDAY (15/6)

Other than helping out with VCS along with the guys and her, I've had a pretty average week. There was futsal with my La Salle gang. Had a really good time catching up with you guys. I'm missing out on all the drama back there weiiiii! Haha. I'm no longer there to keep you guys balanced =P

THURSDAY (17/6)

Also watched "THE A-TEAM" with Paul and Kelvin for freeeeee! Know why? Cause apparently some people don't appreciate RM50 and just leave it lying on the floor. THAT'S WHY! Verdict on the movie, AWESOME like... OASUHDUAWEDHUHASDBIVE! Perfect blend of action, suspense, and comedy.

FRIDAY (18/6)

Then on Friday, I had a fruitful time indeed. Edwin and his dad picked me up to go to summit. We wanted to go check the prices and designs for our jerseys. Got there around 10.30am? Everything was closed =.= Spent like 3 hours stoning there till we finally decided to eat lunch at Old Town. Continued our unsuccessful search. Found Salvation (Bookstore) which has like EVERY SINGLE HILLSONG ALBUM!!!!! (Lost my mind for a while due to that). Then she called =)

Ditched Edwin (Actually he ditched me for a sports shop) for a few minutes to meet her. The "Smile" switch was automatically turned on in my mind. =) Went back to find Edwin who had already found Denise and her family.

That day, I also found out that guys, if you ever want to buy something but you're not exactly sure what you're looking for, BRING A GIRL ALONG. Edwin, we failed to prove a point. So sad.....

So we finally got the jerseys and headed back to Denise's place to bake. No, I did not bake anything. But I did help out okay (as weird as that may sound). Badminton was fun since i like pwned everyone else xP

@ Good job once again. Let's play on a proper court someday shall we? =)

Headed back to church, said our goodbyes, and continued on at night with worship practice (Joel's first time leading). Finally got to put my bass skills to the test.

WEEKEND (19-20/6)

Had fun during MYF. Father's day celebration was simple and entertaining. Joel did a good job worship leading. Just be more prepared next time yea? =)

Happy Father's Day! (20/6). Not gonna talk much today. One thing many of us forget is that we not only have 1 father but 2! We don't call God our Father for nothing ya know =) So those of you who are reading this, give a big shout out to God and thank Him for being in our lives, being our Father =)

P.S. Some photos are on facebook

P.P.S This'll probably be my last in-depth post for a very long time...

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The rest of this post is for you =)

I love it whenever you smile,

But you already know that.

Just getting a glimpse of you,

Could brighten up my day.

You're stuck in my head all day,

I wouldn't have it any other way.

I try so hard not to smile when with you,

I think it's impossible to do so

(That's why, sometimes my smiles end up retarded).

We're total opposites,

That just proves you ARE my other half.

Just want you to know I enjoyed every second we spent together these holidays, and am looking forward to more. All the texting, chatting, and just talking. =)

Smiles & Holidays

I've been having an awesome 1+ week! Church Camp this year was probably not as great as last year's but hey, it was still enjoyable.

The Beach!

BROTHERHOOD! ft. Mr. 305

Other than that, A LOT has happened within this short period of time. Won school inter-house badminton (Got my first DESERVING medal ever!). I've also made a big decision in my life. Those of you who know, well, you know =) Don't really know what else to say. I'm overwhelmed in a good way. Tie me to the ground for I think I can actually float away =)

Well, it's the holidays now. Hopefully it'll be a fruitful one. Off to Ipoh. Will be back by the weekend. And I'm thankful God just continues to shower his blessings upon me, you, and everyone else. PEACE!

Away at Vacation Church School 2010

Updates on what's been happening soon!...

When I get back.

The Time Has Come

TODAY IS THE DAY!

You have made!

I will rejoice & be glad in it!

These songs have something in common when you think about it.... today is the day... the time has come??? see???????

The Time Has Come

=)